complicated.
it's just today. and only 18 hours has passed, and i'm already experiencing so much.
it's been a rather emotional day. from happiness to feeling pissed, guilt and sorrow. sometimes i tell myself that i'm not made to cope with all these. so it's okay for me to feel so
small among all these problems posed. but sometimes i despise myself for not being able to cope with all these.
it's not a lot, it's definitely manageable. the problem is how. there are days which everything goes your way, and days which make you feel the whole world's against you. but it's picking yourself up from each setback which allows you to learn and grow.
i'm gonna pick myself up. it's been quite traumatic. somehow i'm reminded of something which i had forgotten for years and rather it be left that way. the anguish suffered. it just completely drowns my spirits.
and somehow after typing all these out, it doesn't seem to help. i need someone to talk to. anyone will do. i need to get the burden off me. it's too much, way too much.
Escaped
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