Thursday, January 22, 2009
meaningless.
some things in life become meaningless over time. but some things remain true even as time goes by. i just can't understand this.
been quite extreme lately. it's as if i'm been possessed at times. i can flare up suddenly within seconds or be very nice. i can be talking non-stop a moment ago and completely stay silent in a while.
my body seems to be crumbling. maybe i been pushing myself too hard. forcing myself to study like crazy, give my all in training and matches for schwarz star. been quite extreme in recent matches too. especially when i'm being subjected to unfair play. so what if i'm smaller in size compared to you guys who are twice as old and larger in size than me?
i'm not letting you guys take advantage of that. i'll give you double of what you give me. don't force me to do things i don't want to do to you. i'll turn nasty in an instant. reckless it may be but i'm sick and tired of it. and it's not going to spoil my passion for soccer.
i'm practically stuck now. don't know what to write. all i need is just a quiet place. i can be there for hours and just enjoy the quietness. it's probably going to help me relax.
tired. exhausted. drained. sick of this. sick of that.
you're the one i need now.
Escaped
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