Thursday, January 8, 2009
emotional + pissed off.
i don't know why. maybe it's because i'm exhausted every day. my mood recently has not been too good. i can be laughing like crazy when talking to people like kaming, palit and azli and can be completely stoning when i'm alone or exhausted.
i'm more short-tempered recently. and when i hear something that's not nice or people giving me stupid attitude like as if i owe them a million dollars like that.
i will just flare up. and when i don't want to talk to someone, i mean i don't want to talk to you and you should not come near me. because when that happens, you'll either get screwed by me, or i'll walk away.
and i don't like to be treated like a dummy. when i do something, i don't want people to pretend its not done at all. if you are going to do that, i'm not gonna waste a single second of my life doing the work you deem as transparent. it's just completely disrespecting my work. and i HATE that.
i'm on the verge on using profanities. cause i'm getting more and more unhappy as i type this. but i shall control myself.
and i also absolutely, definitely, hate repeating my words. if i'm not clear then it's my fault but when i speak loud and clear and you tell me that you can't hear what i say, you better go dig your ear with a gigantic spade. cause either you're deaf or you got too much ear wax in that ear of yours.
and to some of you, stop giving me a stupid or an innocent look in front of me. some kind of faces just ain't suitable for you. so stop it. it makes me feel like puking my dinner from yesterday out. i really wish to slap you in the face if i can. but i can't and therefore i have to put up with it.
and now's the time for me to let it all out. you won't see this kind of posts often and neither do i like typing such posts.
and there are those who are so fake. if you don't mean something, don't say it. don't say it just to show that you are concerned. it just makes me have a worst opinion of you.
i don't wish to name people here. it's not my style. i believe those people know who they are. i want to have a happy time at phs, but these people aren't letting me have it.
sometimes i just wish i can dissapear into thin air. i wonder how that will feel like.
i'm stressed.
and emotional.
and only you can bring a smile back to my face.
Escaped
{19:06}
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